I'm going on anothe blind date tomorrow. I've been going out with girls off the internet since I was 16 years old. I've run across some great girls. I've had some great laughs, and some great disappointments. I've had my fair share of first dates. Most of the time, I was neither what they expected or what they wanted. I've heard just about every reason in the book for not seeing me again. The ones that really hurt are the ones where they don't say anything. I want a reason, I don't want to be avoided. That looks to me like they're playing games.

Sure, you can say that I shouldn't even be dating off the net. It can be unsafe, it can be unpredictable, but it can also be great. I've seen the greatness of internet dating. I've had three pretty big relationships because of it. I fell in love, really hard. Then again, I've also had a lot of heartache from dating off line.

I keep my chin up in spite of the rejections and heartbreak. I don't know why. But I see myself settling down, having a wife and children someday. I just wish I had the courage to ask a girl out in person, someone I've seen and talked to in a public place, someone I might be able to trust a little more. But I'm a coward who has only found happiness through internet dating. So you might say, I'm a bit stuck.